Updated: Jun 8, 2021
I am so thankful for God’s Grace. That we don’t get what we deserve. Studying Gods word has revealed to me that Gods Grace refines our movement.
We are no longer the same that we become new. With out God’s Grace sin would still have rule over us. Some don’t understand just what it’s like to be ruled by sin because they are still in it.
“What then? shall we sin, because we are not under the law, but under grace? God forbid. Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness? But God be thanked, that ye were the servants of sin, but ye have obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine which was delivered you.”
Romans 6:15-17 KJV
Yet I remember a time in my life where I was always doing things that I knew was not good for me but didn’t know how to stop. It was like why do I do those things that I know will lead me into a place where I feel bad about myself but I couldn’t stop.
At the time I had multiple partners, I smoke, I drank, I was bitter, angry, and depressed. There were probably much more things I was doing like lying and stuff but one sin opened the door to many of them.
I got to the point where I was tired of fighting. Just figured this would be my life, I knew it could be better but I didn’t know how to get out of it. I had already flunked out of school was still living with my parents and at the time the only way to deal with it was to go deeper into sin.
Then one day, I was so low, I was no longer eating well. I remeber my mom coming into my room offering me some of my favorite breakfast and I turned her down. In that moment I knew I was at my ends wit. I didn’t know what to do but I opened my bible and begin to read Gods word.
I knew that God was calling me but I had always felt unworthy and I was but his grace and mercy was bigger than that. Even in that time I struggled to fully give my life to God I wanted all that God had for me but at the same time I was still a slave to sin.
So torn I didn’t know what to do. I convinced myself that I knew God even though I was living in sin. This is something that we all do. Pray on and off show up at church, come to God when we need him yet our relationship with him is more of here say relationship.
More gossip then really carrying the gospel 😂. Some will get it some won’t. Anyways it wasn’t until after marrying my husband did I have my own relationship with God. My husband had told me Christmas that he didn’t want to be with me and I remember feeling so broken.
I just knew that I couldn’t go back to God because I had forsake him for my husband. Before meeting my husband, I just began to seek God while heartedly and then was distracted and pulled back out into sin.
I just thank God he didn’t give me what I deserve. If he was a man he probably would of told me I told you so, now don’t come back to me cause he left you. Gods Grace though he wrapped his arms around me he urged me to come back.
He brought me to his people to minister to me and to help me through. Brothers and sisters it was not easy but it was so worth it. Doesn’t mean that things don’t still come up against me. I still must know that God is working on me, that I’m not perfect just cause I’m free from sin.
Just here to encourage others that Gods Grace is sufficient enough. Go to God with a made up mind, ready to repent and to give up your old ways. What he has for us is better than the world can ever give. You’ve been in the world long enough turn your heart to God and forsake the rest. Trust it will be the beat decision of your life.
“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 KJV